Uin: 14342015
Nickname: jiffy
Realname: Geoff
Town: Stockton On Tees
County: Cleveland
Email: geoff.stuttard@ntlworld.com
Comments: History of my romance leading up to the wedding starting from my arrival on feesch in May? 2005: Although it says I am in a relationship I am actually separated and getting divorced. Am just looking for friends for now until my divorce is sorted out then who knows? STOP PRESS UPDATE: Divorce finally came through June 15th 2005 so changed it to say am single but still just looking for friends till dust settles and I can start to think about the future. Having said that have just fallen head over heels with someone and it didnt go well. Shooting myself in the foot again. They either can't get through my barriers and they eventually give up trying and go away or like this one blow my barriers away from the very start. Then I can't stop myself from going too fast as I don't want them to drift away and then frighten them off doing so. Still its nice to know I can still feel this way about someone - been hollow inside for too long. STOP PRESS UPDATE: I said it didnt go well initially but we have patched it up to some extent(prior to divorce suddenly coming through) and have settled down again since as very special mates. Perhaps it can grow but probably not but we have each other to lean on whatever happens. Sense of humour definitely best feature (nowt to beat though). Been told I am a good kisser, great cuddler and my gentle touch is nice too. Am a very good listener and if you need a friend I can be a very good one. I am quite new to Feesch so would welcome messages from potential new friends so please get in touch if you see anything we have in common. UPDATE: July is a very very bad time for me the 29th is the anniversary of a tragedy in my life from many years back and tends to flatten me every year. Only if there is someone sharing my life has it not taken me apart. I thought it would be worst ever this year as I had several upsets just before which reopened old wounds and felt more alone than ever but thanks to someone who just would not let me drift downwards I have come through it relatively unscathed this year. Thank you for caring (you know who you are). Nevertheless I always seem to be different when I emerge into August and this year seem to be very much more comfortable with myself than for some time. dunno if it will last but for once am almost friends with myself. And also one of those friends who was so supportive of me during July has had problems herself since and I was able to return the favour and so we decided to meet up and a romance has just blossomed out of nowhere. I know its early days yet but have high hopes this is the one. So changed to say in a relationship again! UPDATE _ SEPTEMBER Yes indeed this is the one! 4 weeks together and no doubt about it. Popped the question at Marie's 50th birthday Meet and the answer was Yes. Set wedding day for Easter Saturday - April 15th. Hope to have her join Feesch soon too. Watch out for Mrs Jiff! Hmmm maybe I should get a journal - naah I would tell too much or nothing at all. That's just the way I am I suppose. UPDATE March 2006 Moved in with my fiancee in Stockton 3 weeks ago and house in Leeds sold today. Just 30 days now to the wedding so pretty busy with moving and wedding plans etc so not online very often. Starting July again - married 11 weeks now. Maybe July will not be the nightmare it has been in the past now I have someone to lean on.